Saturday, June 14, 2008

One of the things I'm enjoying most about my dream group is that each of us has an appreciation for, even a longing for, deeper spiritual meaning in the very personal experience called dreaming. Dream work, as we're doing it, requires that we believe God still communicates with us through our dreams, the same as he did thousands of years ago with the people of the Old and New Testaments.

It's an intensely intimate time of spiritual and emotional sharing that satisfies needs I have that I'd forgotten I had. I feel so much less crazy and weird after attending these sessions. It's good to be with people who aren't afraid to go deeper than most superficial friendships allow. There is a deep river of wisdom that runs through life and it seems much easier to traverse with others who want to enjoy its life-giving properties. Like the sign at the swimming pool says, It's not good to swim alone. Who would help if we start to drown?

The numbers I got back from the doctor were good. My cholesterol, which had been 229, was down to 156; HDL, which should be higher than 50, was 58; LDL, which should be lower than 100, was 88, Triglycerides, which should be less than 150, was 50. Evidently, the Vytorin has helped.

I have an appointment next week to see if I am actually ADD, or if it is something I've imagined ever since I learned there was such a thing. It has never been easy for me to settle down and concentrate on one thing. My mind flits in fifty different directions. Reading a book has always been difficult, and as I age it's even harder. I rarely get through a whole magazine or newspaper article these days.

My life is littered with unfinished projects, I start things, then lose interest in them and don't have enough will-power to make myself finish them. It's embarrassing. Before I get totally senile, I'd like to know if some of my distraction could be due to a chemical imbalance and can be remedied with pharmaceuticals. Most people don't wait as long as I have to tackle this problem, if they tackle it at all, but I've lived with it for 60+ years and that's long enough. It will be interesting to see what the psychologist says.


mornin' said...
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mornin' said...

Cathy, your comment - There is a deep river of wisdom that runs through life... reminded me of a very special verse in the Psalms:

Psa 36:8 They drink their fill of the abundance of Your house; And You give them to drink of the river of Your delights.

Love you.